I know I said it before but this time I’m being serious.
Yesterday I was at a college meeting and it turns out I’m dealing with harder stuff than I’ve ever had to deal with which worries me a lot because I just hate dealing with this kind of stuff. I know it’s what you’re normally supposed to do in life but for me I feel like I’m about to have a panic attack if I keep getting stressed about it. Since the meeting I’ve been feeling really scared. Perhaps more so than I’ve ever had. I’ve not been able to eat much and I’ve been feeling sick to my stomach. And it’s not because of that. It’s because I’ve been panicking so much over it. I know it’s the stuff people have to go through but I honestly don’t know if I can handle College. I feel like I don’t even want to go there. I tried to calm myself down but no matter what, I’m still afraid. Yes I have problems but I can’t help it. I even tried finding people to talk to so I could find some help to feel better. But at the same time I felt like they were busy and I didn’t want to bother anyone. So I decided to take a break from here so I can think good thoughts and hopefully find my happy place because I don’t want people talking to me about this college stuff anymore. I just can’t handle it. So I’m taking a temporary break from this site. I won’t be gone for long so don’t worry. I’ll be back when I feel better. I just need some time to calm down and think happy thoughts. I really need this.
I hope you guys understand everything I said in this journal. And like I said, I won’t be gone for too long. I’ll be back when I feel calm and forget about this college thing. Thank you for reading and I’ll see you guys later.